hedonism

it was a brief obsession of mine
after my first wife left
researching them
seeing why and how
they did what they did

for some
fantasy played a large role
searching for a perfect
fantasy lover—beautiful
submissive and eternal

others were less
intimate
following from
a great distance
to secluded areas
to pursue them
for no other
reason than delight

while still others
more refined
were motivated
by material gain
and lifestyle
only acting out
when disrupted

somehow
reading about
all these people
who needed
so much
more than I did
set me at ease

during those quiet
and seemingly
endless nights
dreaming
of new
forms of lust
thrill and comfort
still so far
out of reach